Yea, I’m sitting in my bed, tears down my cheeks cus I’m wishin’ I was dead, dark thoughts speaking if you listen in my head, I can’t take the fucking stress it’s a mission and I’ve fled, from the only that loved me, fuck me, what am I to do cus I’m drowning in the rough seas, ocean of emotion is, taking me I’m motionless, thinking bout my uncle and I wonder just he close he is, supposing this is something I really shouldn’t think about, insomnia keeps me up sleep I’ve learnt to live without, but all those extra hours slowly turn to thinking time, we’re in the same boat? No way you would sink in mine, confusion in decisions, abusing what I’m given, stead of using what I’ve written, turn the music off and listen, there’s so much going on and I’m losing who I am, being lost I understand now I choose to be the damned. I’m stuck between a rock and the other is a hard place, haven’t felt the same since michelle and I part ways, she was my foundation I’ve realized in these last days, I will always love her because home is where the heart stays, damn, I’m confused once again, take a walk out the drive but instead I punch the fence, I try to let it out I express it with this anger, I haven’t felt like this since gran was messin’ with the cancer, thoughts are jumbled up they’ve got my mood swinging, it’s screwed up in my mind and mine are loosening, I can’t talk it out it’s hard to describe it, can’t think aloud this if I’ve decided, take me away in a car or casket, can’t stand these thoughts and it’s obvious I can’t sit, how do I deal if there’s no way to cope, I guess I’ll stay here cus there’s nowhere to go.

Eyes have been shut no life in my soul, if death is a person then I’m right in his hold, I try to tell him no doesn’t like when he’s told, won’t let me dream tryna siphon my goal, hollow emotions feeling only emptiness, look to the sky asking why did he send me this, every time there’s no answer to my question, feel I can slip to the light any second, it’s weird, as I’m staring at my eyelids, all I see is darkness I find the sight to write this, how? Maybe with that light is hope, now visions blurry like I’m looking through kaleidoscopes, yea, I guess that is something right? Every time that it’s dark why am I wanting light? Hmm, maybe it is natural, lying to myself I need help am I passable? My heart is feeling dead and I’m wanting it the opposite, everything is negative I’m wanting to be positive, I can make the change but I’m never feeling confident, make a decision but I struggle just to lock it in, empty inside always feeling loneliness, ask for explanations I’m feeling like he owes me this, eyes shut tight I’m wanting them to open wide, to a changed life so I’m tryna keep an open mind, but it’s like all my thoughts are closed off, tryna find a path but I hit a road block, damn, I’m alone and I’m terrified, in the big world I’ll be honest think I’m scared of life, how, am I gonna make it out, all these tribulations got me on a hater route, please, awake me from this coma, I wanna feel alive by the time the song is over. Yea it’s not a secret I know that I’ve been dead, rage in my mind out my eyes yea I’ve seen red, now I’m just a body laying on a clean bed, sleep is a cousin I’m not living out the dream yet, choices are my own god I know that it’s not your fault, once I said this is when I think I got results, and in no way am I hating on religion, I’m just saying I’m who’s making my decisions, yea, I think I’m bout to find myself, watch with a mouth as I’m knowing only time will tell, hey, my eyes start to open more, am I bout to live the life I’ve been hoping for? shit, it’s got me all excited, bout to rediscover what the meaning to my life is, now, I’m a new person, more alive and I say bye to my burdens.

Working at a job that I hate with a passion, waiting for the day that I make it in rappin’, wake up in the morning to go and do some slave work, when I should be working on features for a paid verse, in this rap game all I wanna do is be raw, but I’m up and down like I’m sitting on a seesaw, for my benefit I might jump on the benefit, if I don’t make a cent with my songs then I quit, on the doll I know it’s wrong to go, but money is an evil and I’ve never met a stronger foe, so i’m kinda like the hero fighting with the villain, moneys taking names find I’m signing it with “Dillon”, it’s kicking ass though we get it on our backside, got me seeing dark like I’m looking out a black eye, root of all evil still I see no money tree, life is a bitch and she keeps fucking me. Family’s not poor but fuck man we’re far from rich, when the moneys short I hate life and how hard it is, should I pray to god? he might answer me, I’m wanting his support not mentally, financially, fuck life we’re born just to make a buck, and it doesn’t help when they never put our wages up, I hate this stuff, we need an education, spend years getting it so we can get the pay in, tryna make a living is taking up our whole life, people from this town we end up on the doll right? Or in a job getting paid to the minimum, can’t afford drugs but I’ve taken the riddilin, petrol going up cars a fortune to run, rapping to the point it’s like I’ve tortured my lungs, and I’m yet to get a Cheque from this what the fuck right? as I said not long ago, fuck life.

When I’ve had a bad day she’s always there, when no else does she’s always cared, when it comes to losing her I’m always scared, but we have this special bond and it’s one we’ve always shared, life is a movie or a roll play, I don’t really care though I’m living with my soul mate, had her way before Michelle it’s like I cheated on her, but she always knew so I can keep my honor, yea, of course we’ve had our arguments, if we ever split, she’ll be taking half of it, it being life and that is what I’d give for her, others try to get with her, fuck it though I was with her first, bringing out the thoughts that are deep in my brain, helps with depression at the peek of the pain, when I need her help I write a verse and I’m alive, and the way she makes me feel is something words can not describe. She makes me feel whole cus she digs me, me against the world when she’s with me, marriage on the cards still she can’t kiss me, nothing compares to the feeling that she gives me, she loves me, and when I’m feeling ugly, she makes me feel I’m not true love yea this must be, at the end of every night she likes to listen to my day, help in anyway so I don’t give in to the pain, yea, she’s like an addiction, but love is a drug I don’t need an admission, she’s the only one that knows my deepest secret, and I know that she will keep it, though I’m hoping to release it, seen me at my worse and I’ve cried into her arms, even when I’m hurt she’s at my side until I’m calm, when I need her help I write a verse and I’m alive, and the way she makes me feel is something words can not describe.

Yea I’ve tried to change lately trying to impress chicks, don’t know what to do now I’m single you can guess this, no one in my bed anymore now I’m restless, one on the lips ‘fore I sleep was the best kiss, now I’m hitting town tryna get with chicks right, thinking if I do maybe it will fix life, then I see my ex and I wanna get in fist fights, if you’ve never been in love you don’t know what this shits like, wait, i’m not saying I regret it, me and my ex we’re building on a friendship, it’s about me and finding out who I am, sir names lamb and I’m knowing that I rhyme mad, but i’ll keep on searching like a pirate tryna find land, tryna make decisions that I’m knowing will define “man”, this includes not looking for intoxicated, chicks and using them in attempt to get my cock inflated, shit. I’ma list my flaws so your knowing what I’m all about, it happens when I’m drinking but my dick I tend to pull it out, also when I’m drinking I am thinking I have mood swings, I’m the type to fight on the night if a dude swings, on the odd occasion I struggle to keep self control, it’s happened when I’m sober too not just filled with alcohol, and please don’t believe me when I say that I’ll do anything, I don’t believe in marriage so don’t expect a wedding ring, I’m always writing lyrics but I’m sure that this is obvious, if I see a girl i’ll probably tell you just how hot she is, not to be rude my mouth has it’s own mind, and I don’t like you reading texts if the phones mine, think I’ll stop there though there’s other negatives, if your waiting for the reason to the list then here it is, I think I’m at the point where I’m wanting a relationship, but I will never change, even if you hate this shit. Yea I have my flaws none of us are perfect, I said I’ll never change there’s no better way to word it, if your getting put off then I think it’s time to turn this, I’ma make a list that I hope will prove I’m worth it, grown up with morals, I’m a decent guy, and I’ve never cheated for your peace of mind, if I say “I love you” then of course I’m being honest, and I’ll die in your place girl that’s an easy promise, when your upset I’ll cheer you up that I’ll make sure, all about trust I’ll do my best not to breaks your, I pay attention, to everything you say or mention, and I’ll want you by my side through whatever state I get in, love to see you smile not afraid of being cute, my favourite time to spend is time with me and you, I think I’m at the point where I’m wanting a relationship, but I will never change, that’s why I made the lists. I changed for my last girl but I'll...

It’s been all day you still haven’t text back, loved what we had hope I didn’t wreck that, talk non stop safe to say your like my best friend, the message that I sent I wish I never pressed send, “I’m really catching feelings, in and out you are beautiful”, that is what I sent and I’m hoping it is mutual, waiting for the tone of a message coming through, don’t know what to do, I’m counting one and two, the clock keeps ticking, hours keep passing by, needing your reply, it’s messing with my heart and mind, haven’t known you long it feels like an eternity, thought you felt the same but now I’m losing certainty, if you’ve seen the message it’s not that hard to answer me, I’ve liked you for awhile now ever since my heart was freed, slowly getting close to you, feelings growing stronger, I told you that I like you couldn’t take it any longer. Received a text before and my heart paused, then it started breaking cus the senders name it wasn’t yours, love is a drug but this has me on a guilt trip, poured you out my heart unintentionally you’ve spilt it, I went onto your page and I sent you an apology, according to my facebook it’s a message that you’ve gone and seen, so why’d you not reply? All I’m wanting is a yes or no, a text telling me to go, a sign please let it show, and then I hear a ringing, a phone call, I put it to my ear and she answers with “hello dill”, I’m sorry this is late I was searching hard to find the words, I needed I’ve been thinking how to say this and my mind still hurts, there’ll never be an us and your loves got me questioning, if friends will even work please stop with the messaging, my response? I’m just happy that we spoke again, I know she is my dream girl my eyes I’ll never open them.

I wake up in the morning and I look into your eyes, realize the natural beauty that’s been sleeping by my side, not lies when I say I see your face I’m mesmerized, I can’t analyze why you go on put on a disguise, cus what I just seen doesn’t need to be covered up, doesn’t need all that other stuff, no make up and your stunning right now, you don’t think you are until you draw your eye brows, I understand if it’s helping with your confidence, also hope you find comfort in my compliments, and I know it’s cliché, all through out my day your face is stuck on replay, in my mind, all the time you will find that I’m thinking of ya, hope it’s fine that I’m thinking of ya, not gonna lie I’ve been checking you out, but nothing looks better than seeing you smile. We can talk for hours and the convo never dies, got a trust thing going so we’ve never said a lie, well we try, and it’s nice when we lay under the sky, beautiful’s an understatement, words can not describe, the feeling that I get when I look into your eyes, and you say you feel the same at the start I was surprised, all throughout the day you’ve got the looks that’ll keep me looking, everything is balanced right like you keep your footing, when you walk away I gotta look I can’t help it, want you to myself yea I know my hearts selfish, see something in you like I’m looking at you differently, I feel as though we’re one every time your kissing me, and I know I’m getting soppy now, I’m here to pick you up whenever something knocks you down, I genuinely care don’t you ever think I don’t, right now I’m sitting here and your everything I want. Yea I think it’s time I get a little personal, I made the perfect two and I’m talking bout that person still, the lyrics that I wrote I was trying to impress her, the real her, I wanted to undress her, forget about those I made her plenty songs since, some about feelings and others bout nonsense, she’s the type of girl I could fall deep in love with, gotta hold back not accepted by the public, fuck it, we’re happy but we’re secretive, judged by the rest? Yea nah we don’t need that shit, so we keep it on down the low, how so? Do we go and tell people? Hell no, even though I wanna tell the world, I know that I can’t cus it wouldn’t help my girl, things are getting different can I sorta call you mine? in mind I think you are your in my thoughts all the time.

Wanna take it back to my kindergarten days, yea, when I wanna feed it was in the garden aye, chur, finish up at day care straight to nickelodeon, now it’s bout sex and my dick is on a podium, what I miss the most is never paying one cent, when I wanted something I would always ask and mum spent, really miss the days, I would get a funny phase, if ever I got a graze, I would look at mummys face, and she’d make me feel great, take the pain away, every time I misbehaved, they robbed me of my redbull, had to stay grounded, coley was the best school, every interval you would catch me on the playground, always running round energetic like a greyhound, when I was only six I was strumming on an instrument, never heard of sex my mind was fully innocent, where’d it all go? Fuck I must’ve left it in Levin, working for a living stead of digging in the sandpit, allergic to my job fuck this isn’t how I planned it, sorta gotta girl but we’re always being secretive, always in a fight with some guys wanna piece of this? When I’m with my parents fuck I never say I love them now, instead of doing this I’m getting drunk and then I hug the ground, moneys always short as I’m waiting for the next bill, it’s weird I’ve got these fans that are saying wanna sex dilz, fuck growing up but I gotta show maturity, life is book and I’m telling you the stories deep, ‘fore you turn the chapter make the most of it and read slow, life is a bitch make the most of her til she goes.

When I hear this beat damn I want your affection, so beautiful like you’re close to perfection, when we are together I can feel the connection, here’s my confession this is what I reckon, want this song to play when I walk through the door, have you up on the walls or the floor, no more fantasy, show your anatomy, I can be your superman dilz is for short, that’s what I said, now it’s back to the bed, I can kiss on your neck, or no disrespect, we can skip to the sex, hold up, I’m skipping ahead, we’ll get to this in a sec, start on your lips, while I’m giving them a kiss, get to rubbing on your nips, and your loving every bit, now I’m moving to your hips, here you wanna strip, but we stop for a sec cus it builds up intensity, definitely a thing that was meant to be, like I pressed play we are back we left off, used to have the thought at this moment like “lets not”, it was these thoughts that caused me to get soft, back to the fantasy, my hand will be, rubbing up your inner thigh, give a natural high, so happily, staring in your eyes and you know what I wanna do, wanna take your clothes off get right on top of you, treat you like proper dude, should, which is good, still can’t believe I’m with a girl that is hot you, when we kiss does it look like an actor pashing an actress, matching the mattress, passionate hat track, grabbing the practice, go 3 times, don’t wanna end this so rewind, hold in time, what I’m bout to say is the golden rhyme, but I really wanna know if your only mine.

A very large majority of lyrics have a message, listening to my music you can actually learn a lesson, the difference when it’s me I see a problem and address it, my music’s filled with stresses and my fucking life confessions, still I’m far from perfect when it comes to dropping verses, I have yet to scratch the surface but at least I have a purpose, I’m knowing what I’m worth, I know I gotta work, but they kick a lot of dirt in my face every time they drop a verse in a song that’s promoting negativity, it’s like staring at a chance I know they’re never giving me, rappers say the same shit, flow is very basic, it’s like I gotta do this if I’m wanting to be famous, I can’t comprehend it, think we need to end it, coming in the game I have formed a couple friendships, eric is a rapper coming from Alaska, who approaches with his lyrics stead of running from the matter, krys is a chick helping me feel comfortable, with a couple topics I’m reminded to have fun and all, it’s really helped me out I was getting to involved, now I have solutions not made to be dissolved, the selfish me evolved so behold, I’ma do this for the love til I’m old, problem solved, I was fixated on getting money and the fame, now I wanna help if there’s nothing to my name, but I find it hard to understand the population, I’m waiting to be noticed hope you know I’m not impatient, watching corruption within this occupation, has me feeling worried so lets put a stop to satan, rappers get rich promoting the violence, then when someone dies we hold a moment of silence, we didn’t see it coming after all it’s only music right? Wrong, it’s a leading cause to why we lose a life, while they’re making money and we never put a stop to it, we’re the only reason why they have this accomplishment, and I’m going on a bit but there’s more to show the world, it’s hard to be recognized coming in with no referral, I’m grinding every day putting in the hours, I’m wanting to be peeped like they’re looking in the shower, promoting all my songs on my lonesome, started at the bottom and I’ve grown since, and I mentioned Eedee he put it all in motion, my music came together ever since i got to know him, it saws in, now I’m rapping with emotion, even though I’m moving at times I feel I’m frozen, as bigger names are rapping bout the weapon of their choice, I try to save a life and come second to that noise, a lot of names associate, but I know they grow from hate, it’s like we’re not knowing that their music lacks intelligence, I’m sitting in a room, look, that’s an elephants, cus damn their raps irrelevant to what is going on, and the list of the problems in this world is growing long, just a couple days ago a vid made it viral, if someone isn’t liable the systems in denial, all throughout my life I’ve helped people suicidal, we all have a meaning just know that you are vital, I have to change my style if I’m wanting them to listen, mainstream has put me in a fucked up position, one in which to many in my shoes have fallen victim, if your blind to corruption thinking maybe that it isn’t, that’s cool everyone’s entitled to opinions, but yours doesn’t matter unless rapping’s in your vision, if it is and your thinking that your easy competition, with temptation staying true is such a mission, but I’m never selling out no matter the conditions.