Growing up you could call me close-minded, if one could see love in the same sex they’re both blinded, I used to think this I had no time for it, now I see love and realize I’m the one who’s blind to it, had a girlfriend for most of my college years, if you could change the past I’d be the first to volunteer, not because regret but because I didn’t treat her right, when she was in a dark place I’s supposed to be her light, instead I was selfish, I always put myself first, want to sort my own life before I tried to help hers, after 3 years we split and I was left confused, met a couple girls after this that I guess I used, but I’d always hurt them I couldn’t get my feelings sorted, I just wanted them to like me so I’d feel important, I felt so withdrawn, this is when I realized love is really what we live for.


So it left me with a damaged mind alcohol will help the mend, kept it to myself I didn’t even tell my friends, couldn’t get it up when a girl tried having sex with me, couldn’t catch feelings and honestly it messed with me, having a girl for years then having nothing, left me with this constant feeling of missing something, unhappy with a partner but I’m miserable single, needing me a soul mate just give me a signal, I’m not the single type I had now accepted, like I’s in the mirror staring back I did some self reflection, if you find somebody your in love with, it’s an odd feeling what you feel you gotta trust it, see, love is something that we can’t decide, even though it’s beating these emotions prove our hearts alive, whether it’s the same sex or someone that you shouldn’t see, you don’t wanna look back thinking bout what could’ve been.


As a human we are born with these emotions, tryna find someone who deserves our devotion, and when you find someone that you know you are happy with, that is the day you will find true happiness, see love is something we could never purchase, it goes a lot deeper than what we learn at churches, we all have the feeling but don’t get to choose the person, perfection don’t exist but in your eyes you see them perfect, earlier I mentioned being blind to it, but loves meaning, I think I’m finally finding it, love isn’t sex or any other factor, it’s when you have each other and that’s the only thing that matters.