Baby I know your missing me, and I’ve been missing you, but please you need to see I’ll do my best to think this through, we’re walking different shoes, think we’re sharing different views, was on the same boat now we’re on a different cruise, now I’m drinking liquor too, damn I’m sick of feeling blue, should be tryna sort this out but instead I’m nippin’ booze, we’ve shared so many years, we’ve shed so many tears, all this fighting over nothing now it’s led to many fears, yea I said we needed space, for my head to find a place, to realize what it has before it all just goes to waste, forever was our phrase, but just incase you missed it you were making these decisions that were never in our vision, I was begging you to listen but you wouldn’t hear me out, sometimes I clearly doubt cus the change I’m weary bout, I wanna stay the same, never gaining from this pain, always thinking of your name, feel I’m walking through the rain, waiting for the sun, the contemplating has begun, as emotions over run it’s like I’ve got a bleeding heart, thought it’s best we be apart, but instead I see the dark, punching shit to ease the pain, hope it’s me you seize to blame, we were picture perfect can we try and freeze the frame, 3 years nearly up and purely all of them with memories, was thinking this would never leave, but if that is the case I need you to remember me. Just remember me.

Yea I’m trying baby it’s oh so hard, I don’t know if we’ll be alright, I’m stuck between closure or just to hold you don’t know how to deal with what I feel inside, but no matter what I’m feeling you always will have my heart, and I know that will never change, whether for the best or whether for the worst, something always seems to hurts now I’m sick of pain.

I remember back one time I told you that I love you, was different from the rest and yes I guess I found it tough too, but I said I’m in and then you looked me in the eyes, smiled cheek to cheek and then you said your gonna cry, tears of joy of course and then you said the same right back to me, happily, now it’s slowly turning to a tragedy, I’m sitting here with tears and they’re nothing like they were that day, probably every word I say from now on has a consequence, whether it’s to you or to any on my contact list, yes I understand this our connection is now fraying quick, don’t you think it’s out the blue cus I have been saying it, delaying the unthinkable, don’t know what to think at all, wait it’s us until the end, through this all your still my friend, we just took a fall and now it’s time to climb the hill again, I’m hoping that I’m right with this please don’t prove me otherwise, potentially could face regret even from another life, quickly just another thing, I’m sick of all the struggling, can’t stand to have a little fight I’ve strictly had enough I mean, we’re skating on thin ice so I’m hoping it is holy water, if it still can break then breaking up damn I know we oughta, hold up shit I’m so confused I’m back to thinking fuck it all, wonderful, at the start I’s always thinking love is cool, lately every day we have is equaled with the good and bad, this isn’t how it’s meant to be, I question are you meant for me? No matter where we go from here I’ll always be in love with you, I don’t what to do it’ll break my heart you with another dude, my thoughts are jumbled up I’m still without conclusion, weighing up the pros and cons still with no solution, wow this is harder than I thought’ll it be, I don’t who I am this is all distorting me, I love you and I’m sorry for how all of this is panning out, I have my two decisions and we’ll see which one is standing out.

Yea I’m trying baby it’s oh so hard, I don’t know if we’ll be alright, I’m stuck between closure or just to hold you don’t know how to deal with what I feel inside, but no matter what I’m feeling you always will have my heart, and I know that will never change, whether for the best or whether for the worst, something always seems to hurts now I’m sick of pain.